Ok so pretty bad week overall. By the end of night Wednesday I knew there was a panic attack brewing. I kept waiting for it. All day Thursday I did nothing until I had to go to work because I knew it was coming. And it didn't. Eventually I thought that I had progressed quite well in my quest against anxiety. I was wrong. Painfully wrong.
It all started when I decided to paint my nails. I painted them silver but decided they needed to be more colorful. So I tried adding bright blue polish to the tips like a French. Ugly. So I decided to just paint over top the silver with the blue. It looked pretty good. Here is where the problem starts.
I have no patience. So I start doing stuff. Lo and behold I smudge one. Then another and another. Grrrrrr. Why does this always happen to me? Oh yeah...ADD.
See this is where I miss my meds. I could totally paint my nails and patiently wait for them to dry. Without meds I'm a 4 y/o on a Pixie Stix bender. And I probably wouldn't be typing such short paragraphs. Moving on...
So I keep smudging them thinking I can make like some cool design. Ha ha. No! It looked like I let a 2 y/o paint my nails. So I need to get this crap off my hands due to the fact that I have to work tomorrow morning. So I go upstairs and am immediately gripped in fear. As usual this AM after showering I closed the shower curtain. Never a problem before. But the cute froggie shower curtain I just purchased and hung is not see through. Which obviously means a serial killer is lurking behind it.
Great! That's when the panic attack starts. And as I have been doing in recent weeks when the attacks start, I begin to talk myself out of them. I sound like an idiot, but it has been working. But it's an up and down process. I start feeling better and then the fear creeps in. All of the sudden the cute froggies looked evil as hell. They totally looked like they wanted to eat me and I ran.
You win this time frogs, but someday I'll be stronger...
Trials of Toby
Friday, February 25, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Snow Wars!!!!
Yeah I haven't blogged anything on here lately. One because I've been trying to spend less time in front of a computer and two because there hasn't been anything really interesting to blog about. So let's talk about the last week and see if I can come up w/anything semi amusing.
SNOW...So yeah it's Winter, my least favorite time of year. And we have been getting crap weather for like weeks. Snow, ice and rain. The snow was kinda fun. And by kinda fun I mean not at all. Ok I lie. The Windsor Parking Space War of 2011 was kinda fun. Zak spent a good bit of time shoveling out our car. And by our car, I mean my dad's car because I have broken all of our cars. Maybe I should finish the blog I started about me breaking cars...Anyway Zak shoveled out our spot and our dickhead neighbor then took the spot when Zak went to work. Ok here's the thing. I hate putting out a chair in our spot. In my head if someone sees an open spot they should think "Did I shovel that out?" If the answer is no, then don't park there. Seems simple enough to me. But alas the dickhead parked there. Which made Zak very angry and caused him to shovel a huge pile of snow in front of the dickhead's car.
So the next day dickhead tries to leave. Oops!! He can't get out...Hee hee. We were watching this from the window and laughing our asses off. I'm sure he heard us. So instead of digging himself out, he proceeds to back up and pull forward like 15 times. And he kept flooring it and ramming the backend of his car into the snow pile that was already there in the back of the space. This causes him to bust out a tail light. Which he blames Zak for...Ok this tells you how smart this dickhead is...Zak shoveled the snow in front of the car. But dickhead is telling everyone that whoever shoveled him in busted out his tail light...Ok...
Back to the battle. So that evening dickhead decides to seek revenge on Zak. He gets out his ancient lawn tractor w/a plow on the front. The plow is the size of a shovel. So he motors on up the sidewalk at like 1 mile an hour on a quest to plow our car in. Too bad Zak had to leave for work again and that ruined dickhead's epic quest. Tee hee! He yells at Zak "I can play dirty too buddy". OMG! Seriously...
So after Zak leaves he texts me and says "I think I will shovel out the Voyager and move it around back so that frees up parking out front" I agree that this would be a nice idea seeing as how parking sucks when it snows. Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut it turns out that dickhead decided since he couldn't plow in the car we were using, he plowed in the Voyager. Like piles snow all over it, top to bottom. Zak sees this and says "F it, he screwed himself since that would have left an open spot closer to his house" Oops! Good job buddy!!
Well I was gonna write about more stuff, but I think this should cover it for awhile. I will finish the blog about me killing vehicles and then finish the story of Zak and Toby and how we ended up together. Maybe I will finish that for Valentine's Day. Maybe...
TTFN!! <3
SNOW...So yeah it's Winter, my least favorite time of year. And we have been getting crap weather for like weeks. Snow, ice and rain. The snow was kinda fun. And by kinda fun I mean not at all. Ok I lie. The Windsor Parking Space War of 2011 was kinda fun. Zak spent a good bit of time shoveling out our car. And by our car, I mean my dad's car because I have broken all of our cars. Maybe I should finish the blog I started about me breaking cars...Anyway Zak shoveled out our spot and our dickhead neighbor then took the spot when Zak went to work. Ok here's the thing. I hate putting out a chair in our spot. In my head if someone sees an open spot they should think "Did I shovel that out?" If the answer is no, then don't park there. Seems simple enough to me. But alas the dickhead parked there. Which made Zak very angry and caused him to shovel a huge pile of snow in front of the dickhead's car.
So the next day dickhead tries to leave. Oops!! He can't get out...Hee hee. We were watching this from the window and laughing our asses off. I'm sure he heard us. So instead of digging himself out, he proceeds to back up and pull forward like 15 times. And he kept flooring it and ramming the backend of his car into the snow pile that was already there in the back of the space. This causes him to bust out a tail light. Which he blames Zak for...Ok this tells you how smart this dickhead is...Zak shoveled the snow in front of the car. But dickhead is telling everyone that whoever shoveled him in busted out his tail light...Ok...
Back to the battle. So that evening dickhead decides to seek revenge on Zak. He gets out his ancient lawn tractor w/a plow on the front. The plow is the size of a shovel. So he motors on up the sidewalk at like 1 mile an hour on a quest to plow our car in. Too bad Zak had to leave for work again and that ruined dickhead's epic quest. Tee hee! He yells at Zak "I can play dirty too buddy". OMG! Seriously...
So after Zak leaves he texts me and says "I think I will shovel out the Voyager and move it around back so that frees up parking out front" I agree that this would be a nice idea seeing as how parking sucks when it snows. Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut it turns out that dickhead decided since he couldn't plow in the car we were using, he plowed in the Voyager. Like piles snow all over it, top to bottom. Zak sees this and says "F it, he screwed himself since that would have left an open spot closer to his house" Oops! Good job buddy!!
Well I was gonna write about more stuff, but I think this should cover it for awhile. I will finish the blog about me killing vehicles and then finish the story of Zak and Toby and how we ended up together. Maybe I will finish that for Valentine's Day. Maybe...
TTFN!! <3
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